I realized I hadn't written a blog in a while, thought about why that was and realized how much has changed in me on my journey to healing. Since I last submitted a blog post I've grown leaps and bounds. I've made some real life changing decisions to be true to myself, not live in fear, and be completely open and vulnerable. I wanted to share that progress with you so that you can recognize the signs and stay strong in the storms of life, knowing there is great opportunity for growth and transformation just on the other side.
I feel certain that the root cause of all illness is not just about your DNA but how you perceive stress and manage it.
Let me explain...
The old me used to dwell on stress, perpetuate negativity, focus on all the bad possible outcomes, and then try and control all the scenarios that could possibly make things worse so I could fix the problem. Sound familiar??? Yes, a great deal of us were raised with a doom and gloom, glass half empty mentality.
We were taught to be alarmists. You can look at social media and see all of us feeding off of the negative press and realize how prevalent that mentality is. You can also see and FEEL where that gets you - SICK and EXHAUSTED!
The new me has realized that stress is going to occur. We will not go through life without it nor would I want to. How I perceive stress has totally changed how my body responds to stress. I didn't realize this, of course, until I was well on my healing journey. When I had taken out all the unhealthy foods and toxins, had all the right supplements to support my body's insufficiencies, and still felt pain when under stress. Because I had healed in so many ways physically and mentally I was ready to receive this message loud and clear. Boy did I!
Several months ago I was going through what I refer to as a healing crisis. A place you come to on your healing journey where you have to change something so deeply ingrained in you that your body physically turns against you until you listen. For me it was finding my voice and believing in myself which manifested in a gallbladder attack.
Self esteem was never my strong suit. I grew up in a home as the youngest child in a divorced family with two older sisters. My voice was never heard. I never felt good enough or worthy of anything good. (This wasn't anyone's fault although I had to figure that out myself). I let this self esteem issue keep me from listening to my gut many times which caused confusion, chaos, and unbalance. This manifested in pain.
When we aren't heard or validated, we can be left feeling unworthy and undeserving which leads to fear. When fear drives us, the result can be fear of failure or fear of success. We can end up stuck. Stuck until we feel sick, pained, and utterly exhausted. Thats when we finally realize something has to change.
I started speaking up. My "Ah-ha" moment came. I realized I was worthy of being heard. I was capable of being the leader and steering my life's ship where I wanted it to go. No more waiting for someone or something else to tell me it was OK. No more worrying about what other people thought. Listening to my own inner voice. My own wisdom, so painfully gained, had to be put to good use. This was not easy for me. Healing never is. It's painful, scary, and just plain sucks. But once you get it and honor your truth, acknowledging who you are and what you want in life, then you are completely free to succeed. I started being heard. My validation came in ways unexpected, even from myself. I no longer needed another person to validate me. Yes, it's nice but not neccessary.
Somewhere deep inside myself I knew I was capable of so much more than what I was telling myself. I now feel free to grow. I feel empowered to evoke real change. I feel worthy of this calling to help others find their voice. Others are showing up on this journey to share their hard earned wisdom. Honoring this calling, giving into it and embracing it was so difficult. Now that I have, I am so much happier and in more balance. Onto the next lesson! There will be another healing crisis, but I will acknowledge them more quickly and get through them faster, trusting my body and listening to my instincts. I will give myself a voice without judgement.
If you want to learn how to grow in adversity please don't hesitate to write me. I love sharing my hard earned wisdom to those ready to make their healing journey begin.